"Get Up"

     "Get up!"

     "No" a voice said silently in my head.

     "GET UP!!"

      "No!" I whined outloud. "Go away."

      "You HAVE to get UP!" I told myself again. I didn't want to. I'd woken up in the middle of the night and had a hard time falling back asleep. I like to be up by 8:00 A.M. every morning. I know that. But this morning I just didn't want to and here I am not letting myself sleep a little longer knowing full well what a hard night I'd had.

      "I hate you." I said lowly.

      "Well, I don't particularly like you either," I silently replied back.

      "Well, are you getting up or not?"

      "Shi by my mah tuk oh may!!"

     "Shut up!" I stopped myself. I say gibberish at odd times.I don't like it. I don't mean to either, but its automatic. Sometimes it happens when I think about past events. As a result, I pretty much have to stay in the present because my brain has an override. The gibberish immediately brings me out of the past memory. Although I don't like that I do this, I try to see this insane action as positive simply because it protects me from my own past. I can't visit and stay there. And its better than the swear words, which I absolutely hate. In this instance, the gibberish occurred because I was making myself do something I didn't want to and I was very tired.

     So I get up because I am obviously not going to let myself stay in bed. How rude!!